September Update

September. It’s that time of the year where summer is finally winding down and we can now start to feel the cool autumn breeze. I can already smell the pumpkin spice lattes and cinnamon.

But where I am now? I only have a week and a half of summer break left, and I am procrastinating on my OB and peds reading (oops). I’m trying to enjoy the rest of my break by spending more time with my boyfriend and friends, reading, and Netflix (I’m currently binge-watching the Flash right now haha).

Yes, I’m still a nurse volunteer at UCIMC. I’m getting used to answering call lights and transferring calls; it’s a little robotic but I’m sure this experience will benefit me during my rotations. The most important part is that I’m slowly befriending the staff on that unit.

I finally got hired a month ago as a patient care assistant/caregiver! I’m currently taking care of a developmentally delayed 4 year old girl born with GI malformations. Honestly, the job is tiring but I’m learning so much. I can see how different pediatric nursing is and how much patience it requires. Despite how stressful this job can be, I still love spending time with my patient. She’s fearless, playful, charming, resilient, and most importantly a survivor.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far 🙂 This was a super brief update, but I’m posting a little something by the end of this week.




“A Sign? Or Trial?”

My housemate and I had a long conversation tonight about our career goals and future plans. Fahrin is a pre-dental student and was expressing her frustration with the challenging prerequisite courses for dental school and her busy upcoming fall quarter schedule. She asked me if her troubles with her practicum sites and current struggles with the coursework were a sign for her that dentistry was not what she was meant to do in this life. Shortly afterwards, Fahrin then proceeded by asking me another question, “Or is this a trial that life is giving me? An obstacle?”. I had a pretty long answer to her two questions, but here is what I basically said to her.

Nothing comes easy in life. Whether it be academically, physically, or mentally related, I have learned that everything requires a certain amount of work to be put in. College is hard and being a STEM major does not come easy. Here is one thing I have learned while in college: you either suffer now or suffer later in life. Pursuing a career in the healthcare/medical field is a long process. It requires passion, stamina, hard work, and a lot of patience. We may get sidetracked, lose motivation, and often feel overwhelmed while embarking on this journey of ours. However, if the struggles you are experiencing or the obstacles you are encountering does not change your passion for whatever your end goal may be, you are just facing a trial. In my experience, the struggle just made me crave the goal more! If you are unable to obtain that goal (and all else fails), that’s ok. We dream big sometimes, but we’re still going to end up doing what we are meant to do. Initially, we may not interpret our failures as a good sign. But we will always learn from them eventually won’t we?

Hopefully, this all makes sense. 🙂 And I do hope this entry helps a person out there in one way or another.


“But You’re a Nursing Student…”

“Oh my gosh, you’re a nursing student. Do you really need a job?”

This was what my friend told me after I told her that I’ve been searching for a part time job for the summer and school year. Maybe she meant that I’m too busy for a job? Who knows…but I’m pretty sure that was meant to serve as a negative comment.

After being in nursing school for three years, I have dealt with demeaning and negative remarks from family, friends, and strangers about my career choice. “If you got into such a prestigious nursing school, you know you could have become a doctor right? You’re switching to pre-med after this right? Have fun with the bedpans. You’re going to be wiping peoples’ asses all day.” And the list continues. This is common among all nursing students; my professor led a discussion one day during class regarding this topic and 95% of my classmates have encountered such attitudes.

I guess people don’t realize that nurses do and know much more than they think. Emptying urinals and feeding patients are definitely part of the job at times, but nurses are constantly on their feet, patient advocates and educators, and etc. Nurses are there to prevent unfortunate things from happening, to hold a patient’s hand when they are in pain, and etc. (Obviously there are more to the list, but I’m still a novice and a student so I wouldn’t say I’m an expert at things here). I just hope that-one day-the stigma that comes with being a nurse will disappear.

Long story short-being a nurse is hard (like everything else in life) and I still need to work hard to be where I want to be in the future. Things don’t come easy to anyone in life. End of rant.

How I Knew I Was in Love

So my boyfriend and I have been together for a little over a year now and things are going great. There were obviously a few bumps in the road, but I would say we’re smooth sailing right now. 🙂 We’ve learned so much together and from each other; I’m so happy that I found him.

How did we meet? Long story short, he sold me a textbook. I honestly didn’t expect things to turn out the way they are now (my roommate Shannen claimed to have known all along though), but I’m not complaining. 🙂 A couple of people have asked me how I knew I was in love. Here were a few of the MANY things that I felt/thought of as I was asking myself earlier on in our relationship:

1. Things just felt different.

In my past experience, I never really had a “good” relationship. My ex-boyfriend and a couple guys I’ve “talked” to treated me poorly and I started to get used to that treatment. It got to a point where one of them urged me to send him nude photos while saying “it’s normal, everyone does it”.

Dan never treated me that way. Our conversations kept going, hanging out with him was never really awkward, I didn’t feel as if I was forcing myself to start our conversations, and etc. Dan was respectful, kind, and hilarious. Things just felt different.

2. I saw him in my future.

And it didn’t feel as if I was making it up. Picturing him in my future was realistic; we have similar ideals, family backgrounds, etc. I saw him in my future, and it made me feel happy.

3. He was there for me.

I met Dan during my second year of college and he was one of the few people who got me through that year. Second year was brutal; it was the year where my nursing school started to weed their students out. I had a tough time with the rigorous courses and developed low self-confidence. Thankfully, Dan was there to cheer me on. He was literally there for me as I studied for my anatomy exams at 4 in the morning (when he didn’t even need to study!!!). He had all the right words to say when I received low exam scores or lost all motivation to study. He was there all along during one of my lowest points in college.

4. Our conversations our endless.

Even to this day, we never run out of things to talk about; our conversations can last until midnight. When he would have to head back home after hanging out with me for the day, it sucks saying good-bye to him. It’s always hard to say good-bye when you want to be with the person all the time.

5. He is supportive.

He would understand if I wasn’t able to talk because of schoolwork or if I had to cancel my date because of a delayed flight. Dan showed up to my white coat ceremony and made it clear that he would be there throughout my journey to becoming a nurse.

6. I am happy.

I am happy with him. Five simple words that I do not have to explain.

The list goes on and on, but it’s getting late and I’m feeling a little sleepy. If you made it this far, thanks for reading!


Wednesday Brunch + Mini Ulta Haul

I was able to hang out with one of my good friends/best friends, Michelle, today. We decided to grab brunch at a cafe nearby, The Boulevard Cafe. Initially, we were a bit skeptical to have brunch here because the reviews were not so promising. But Michelle and I decided to give it a try since we’ve had dinner there before and it was convenient. Silly me didn’t take a photo of what I ordered, but I got the eggs benedict and it looks very similar to this photo I found on Yelp. Honestly, it was better than I expected but I’ve had better eggs benedict elsewhere.


Afterwards, Michelle and I decided to stop by at the Ulta nearby. I wasn’t planning on buying anything, but I left the store with three things in my hand. I haven’t had the time to buy makeup for myself since I’ve been so busy with nursing school and clinicals. But thanks to Michelle and her awesome advice, I decided to treat myself.

1. Ecotools Eye Enhancing Duo Set     2. Tarte Double Duty Beauty Shape Tape Contour Concealer     3. Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge
  1. Ecotools Eye Enhancing Duo Set

I’ve been on the lookout for new eyeshadow brushes since I’ve been using the same eyeshadow brush set since high school. Michelle recommended it to me, saying that the quality is very similar to Real Technique’s. Plus, they were having a buy one get one 50% off deal. I’ll update you guys once I try them out! 🙂

2. Tarte Double Duty Beauty Shape Tape Contour Concealer

It’s about time I bought a new concealer since it’s been over a year since I’ve bought the concealer I’m currently using. I wanted something with better coverage because I have pretty bad, dark circles. But oh my goodness. When I tested it out today, it was LIFE CHANGING. The texture was very smooth and creamy; a little definitely goes a long way. The coverage was just perfect! My dark circles vanished, but it didn’t look cakey. I bought mine in the shade tan and Michelle bought the medium.

3. Real Techniques Miracle Complexion Sponge

I mainly just bought this because of the deal, but Michelle said that it was the perfect dupe for the Beauty Blender. So why not? I’ve been using my fingers to blend my concealer so maybe this will help.

Well, that’s all for today! 🙂 Thanks for reading if you made it to the end.


Here Goes…

Woot! First blog post. I’m finally trying out something I’ve been wanting to do for a while now. So where am I now? What am I doing? What’s up?

I’m on summer break and, for the first time in forever, I am not taking any summer classes. I’m back home in Northern California and have been relaxing at home for about three weeks now. So far, my time here has been nice. I caught up with my family and friends, explored NorCal briefly with my family friends from LA, went to a monastery with my family, and taught some kids how to swim). I’m leaving in a week though and it’s bittersweet. Yes, I definitely love it back here in the Bay Area. But I’ve been missing my boyfriend, friends, and the beaches in Irvine a lot lately.

I have a lot planned for the summer so hopefully summer 2017 treats me well. 🙂 I applied to be a nurse volunteer at the UC Irvine Medical Center. I have an orientation and all set up so hopefully I don’t blow it. Fingers crossed. I’m currently looking for a job, but now that I have the opportunity to volunteer, I guess that’s now less of a priority. Other than that, I’m helping the nursing school with a summer camp and attending a national convention for my nursing fraternity.

Well, that’s all I have for tonight. It was a pretty quick update. If you made it this far, thanks for reading!